- Palpitations, pounding heart, or accelerated heart rate
- Trembling or shaking
- Sensations of shortness of breath or smothering
- Feelings of choking
- Chest pain or discomfort
- Nausea or abdominal distress
- Feeling dizzy, unsteady, light-headed, or faint
- Chills or heat sensations
- Paresthesia (numbness or tingling sensations)
- Derealization (feelings of unreality) or depersonalization (being detached from oneself)
- Fear of losing control or “going crazy”
- Fear of dying
Friday, October 21, 2016
I remember the little ceremony they had. Zach started in January of 2012. He was 2 and a half. That meant he was in a nice amount of slides in the slideshow. But, that's not when time stood still. It wasn't the refreshment time after either.
It was after that. When we were all supposed to be leaving. But, very few people left. Parents weren't in a rush to separate their kids from their friends. So we talked as the kids played. While the sun set and the moon grew strong. The kids played. What was really just over an hour felt like one moment in time. Frozen.
Most of the kids lived in the town the preschool was in. A few of them even knew already they would be in the same kindergarten class. For most, they knew they would never see each other again. We talked about making playdates. But, they never happened.
Zach wasn't the only one saying "goodbye" to friends most likely forever. I was too. Every day after school we stayed around while he played with friends. I would socialize with my parent friends. We occasionally run into someone from preschool. But, it will never be the same.
Time stood still that night. No one wanted it to end. Eventually, we had to let each other go. We all moved forward. Kindergarten started. New friends were made. New routines began. These friendships are the kind of friendships that might actually last long after graduation. That's how it works in this town. You loose touch, but, find each other again.
I think about when he was in preschool sometimes. I wonder if he does too. I think about his friends, my friends, the amazing teachers, and the school itself. He's grown so much since then. It's getting hard to remember my three year old.
We drive by his preschool often. And the night that stood still continues in my memory. Even on a sunny afternoon. I wasn't ready for that time to be over. Would we find a similar routine in Elementary school?
Actually, we did. through last year Zach would play with friends outside school and I would talk to my friends. With him walking home alone more now, it only happens on Fridays. But, the night time stood still continues. The names, faces, and location have all changed. But, time hasn't.
It's a good thing that I still cherish the people and school that were a part of that time. That night that time stood still was the night the most important 13 years of his life started. Can we have that night back, just once? Would we still even recognize the kids and parents if we ran into them?
In that night, time stood still.
Thursday, October 20, 2016
They generally work for most people. However:
1. people like me aren't pet people and don't think your pet is your kid. We're glad you love your pet, but, it's not your child.
2. Kids work between parents and sometimes grandparents. However, some people just don't like kids. Know your audience on this topic.
3. Even if you're "a pool person not a beach person" like me, the beach isn't usually a bad topic. But, bad things can happen on a beach. This might not be a good topic for someone who has been through or seen a shark attack, for example.
4. The weather doesn't seem like something controversial. After all, doesn't everyone agree we have gotten too much snow, it's been raining for too long, we badly need rain, or it's way too hot? Its not about the obvious things. But weather does influence our lives. If the weather is anxiety provoking, it's not a safe topic. Some weather conversations can be anxiety provoking. Example, we have 6ft of snow on the ground already, what are we going to do with the three we are supposed to get tonight?!?!?
These are still mostly safe topics. A lot of these examples are rare. But, I said I was looking for a topic that is 100% safe for 100% of the people. There isn't one.
What makes a topic a bad topic are experiences and opinions formed by the individual. What is generally safe for most people, can make others uncomfortable. Comfort for everyone is important in a positive conversation. So changing uncomfortable topics and sticking to what you know you have in common are the best bet.
I think it's easier to stick with safe topics when you know the person you are conversing with. At minimum, on an acquaintance level. When you have never talked to the person before, these are the topics we tend to stick with.
I wish there was something that was 100% safe for 100% of the population. Because we are more likely to respect each other when we have some things in common. "Ice breaker" topics are boring and cliché. Once we get past the part of the conversation everyone has had many times in their lives, you start learning something about the other person. That's the good part!
Bottom line, we need more generic "ice breaker" safe topics!!!
Thursday, October 13, 2016
"We need to be more respectful to each other. I can't just punish you. I want to reward the good things you do too."
It's around the same time he asked for an allowance. We have always gotten him a prize for being extra good. It was time to combine the two. So we introduced a points system.
He can earn points by doing thing like helping unload the groceries or being extra well behaved. But, we can take away points when he is behaving badly. Points are easy to earn and easy to loose.
We take the price of something with tax and round it up to the nearest 5. Example, he had to earn 25 points for the $20 legos he got yesterday. Then he can cash in those points to receive the gift. He's now at 0 points because he received his prize last night. He earned 25 but along the way he lost about 15.
How many points do I give or take? I judge it based on the situation. Most of the time it's one or two points. With groceries he gets a point for each trip to the car and back. However, all trips but the last one have to be a manageable size. He gets an extra point for putting the groceries away. Most earned points are based on really good behavior over a certain period of time. 30 minutes = 1 point. I don't reward regular good behavior. That's expected. I reward the really good behavior and times when I know it's an effort for him to be good.
Those points are important to him. It's an opportunity to reward his good behavior. He knows we have noticed his good behavior. But, he also knows he'll loose them too for bad behavior. He works hard for those points. I give him three chances to fix his behavior before taking those points away. Most of the time, he does better and doesn't loose the points.
I think overall it's a good idea to award good behavior and punish bad behavior. We all have to find the method that works for our kid. Most of the time, what kids really want is attention. If you only pay attention when they do something bad, they will be in trouble a lot. If you are paying attention when they are doing something good too, they are more likely to continue doing positive things.
The point system is teaching him about what things cost too. We have often told him "no" to a toy because of it's cost. He's old enough now to understand what we mean by that. He knows it took him a month to earn those 25 points. Now he understands why we are only willing to get him what we know he will get a lot of use out of.
Positive parenting means positive kids.
Saturday, October 08, 2016
Full Definition of hurricane
1 : a tropical cyclone with winds of 74 miles (119 kilometers) per hour or greater that occurs especially in the western Atlantic, that is usually accompanied by rain, thunder, and lightning, and that sometimes moves into temperate latitudes — see beaufort scale table
2 : something resembling a hurricane especially in its turmoil
- archaic : a tropical thunderstorm
- a : a squall accompanying a thunderstorm in Africa
b : a violent destructive whirling wind accompanied by a funnel-shaped cloud that progresses in a narrow path over the land
Full Definition of monsoon
- a periodic wind especially in the Indian Ocean and southern Asia
- the season of the southwest monsoon in India and adjacent areas that is characterized by very heavy rainfall
- rainfall that is associated with the monsoon
Full Definition of typhoon
- a hurricane occurring especially in the region of the Philippines or the China sea
- : a tropical cyclone with strong winds of over 39 miles (63 kilometers) per hour but less than hurricane intensity
- a long severe snowstorm
- an intensely strong cold wind filled with fine snow
- an overwhelming rush or deluge blizzard of mail around the holidays.
1. a : an intensely burning fire
c : an active burning; especially : a sudden bursting forth of flame
2 : something that resembles the blaze of a fire: as
a : a dazzling display blaze of color
b : a sudden outburst blaze of fury
c plural : hell
I was in a hurricane once. It was my first year of college. Four weeks into the first semester was my birthday. Hurricane Edward decided to drop by to my campus in South Carolina. I remember the evacuation. Almost the entire school lived west and had to drive home. A group of us had to hide out in the basement/club. My roommate at the time grew up in South Carolina and showed me how to prepare the room. Locking the sheets in the closet for example.
I remember getting Burger King alone for my birthday dinner. My friends had all left. We had to be down in the basement by 6pm. At one point, an upperclassman who lived in South Carolina had the door open watching the storm. It was almost over at that point.
I was the teacher later that year when in snowed. Now biggy but it was the first time in 9 years for them! 3 inches were treated like a foot of snow up here. I was the one teaching other kids how to handle snow. I still remember my new roommate walking to the student center in sneakers......tiptoeing with every step. "Are you sure it's okay?" Classes were canceled for three days.
Misbehaving weather. Why can't wind and rain stay annoying but harmless? Why must nature do so much damage?
When any of these hit, I pray. I pray for everyone that might be effected. Their fears become my fears. I learned something interesting about that experience in hurricane Edward. Sometimes my fears for what might happen to others are bigger then their fears for themselves. But, it's something no one can control. It's misbehaving weather.
Monday, October 03, 2016
Between the real paintings, the pictures, and the printed placeholder pictures, I am surrounded by beauty. So I started doing what I call a "home gallery tour". I start at one paintings and circle around the apartment looking at everything hanging on the wall. This includes quick stops at the wall decorations.
It's like when you go to a real gallery, I linger on some things more then others. When the project is complete I'll take you on a "home gallery tour" too. I focus on the content of the paintings, pictures and wall decorations. The symbolism too. Last night I took Josh on one of these tours. He said.
"I never really noticed a lot of these pictures and paintings. I'm going to start paying more attention to them!"
A picture is worth 1,000 words. I decided to take this picture of Zach (one of the ones from the wall) and see what I can say about it.
1. He's looking at his footprint in the sand. He's close to the water so that's really wet sand. I haven't been on the beach in a long time, but I remember how that sand is different. He's enthralled by the difference too. Perhaps watching as it fills with water. Then watching the water retreat.
2. I can see his footprints in the sand behind him. The path he had to take to get to this point. That sand isn't as wet. It's not as interesting to him.
3. Look at how he's standing. Strong. That's a position of power. It's like he's about to battle the waves. It's a peaceful power. He's not saying "come and get me". He's saying "I can handle what you have for me."
4. Oh those waves. The beautiful waves. Watch as they curl over. Like a hug. They are powerful too. I can almost hear them. That gentle "whosh" they make. I could stare at waves for an hour. Their pure natural beauty. Manipulated by the moon.
5. Waves are a symbol for Hydrocephalus. That is what Josh has. Knowing that now, I think about how he's feeling. Is it a "big head day" from all the water in his head?
6. It's very peaceful. Everything is at peace. The waves aren't too big and are simply beautiful. He's focused an a footprint. A simple footprint. And how nature is interacting with it. It's a beautiful day too. It's interesting that he's looking at the footprint instead of the beautiful waves.
7. 6 years old in that picture. Yet he looks so big. I can picture him doing the same thing as a teenager and as an adult. His quiet and patient observation is so mature! It was probably around 4. Taken by grandma. I wonder what she was thinking when she took it. That was the year it was just the three of us in Ocean City, NJ. A great vacation. But, my father and husband were missed!!!
It's probably not 1,000 words. But, it is a lot of words. This is my cover picture on facebook. I modified it to look like this:
It says "Have trust in God's plan for you. He knows what you really want and need!" As far as I know, I wasn't quoting anyone when I wrote that. It's how I truly feel. This was the right picture to express that.
I analyze every picture or painting like that. I go deeper with some then others. It means taking the time to appreciate the details of the picture or painting. In some cases, learn from them. Like the "Bridge of Faith" paintings above the computer.
As I work on anything at the computer I find myself looking up at it. I look at it when I am problem solving. From big problems to "what word should I use next?" That's because bridges symbolize problem solving and peacemaking. "Bridge of Faith". Have faith that you will find a solution and everything will be okay. It was strategically placed in that location for this very reason. A lot of problems and conflict involve using the computer.
I look at it instinctually. Because my mind knows about the symbols in that paintings. My mind is saying "she needs these reminders, this is the place to find them". I am drawn to the bridge. Josh was drawn to the rushing water. Perhaps it reminded him of the water in his head.
Randomly, I find myself looking up at a painting or picture and stopping in my tracks. Digging deep into the picture or painting. I do that at my parent's house too. My mind is programed to draw me to the painting or picture with the message I need whether at home or at my parent's house. It knows what to look for. Because I took the time to dig deeper into each of them.
Thursday, September 29, 2016
I haven't done that many things
I have plenty of t-shirts
So, what's with the title?
Facebook has been doing this thing. They post on your wall a picture of a t-shirt about different professions. Usually, they choose a profession based on what you put as what you do in your profile. As a few Engineers I know posted their "Scientist" t-shirt ads I laughed. Finally, an ad there is no way they could post on my wall.
Yeah..............I was wrong.
So, what does facebook think my job is?
"Worked at" says "Stay at Home Mom". I assume they selected "writer" because of this blog. I post the link on facebook after writing each blog post. I don't consider myself a writer or even a blogger. This might be a blog, but professional bloggers are journalists. Trained to be journalists. With degrees in English and experience on their college newspapers.
From 6th - 8th grade I drew pictures for the school magazine. Only part of one was actually printed in the 8th grade. That's also the last time I took art. My art skills are officially that of an 8th grader. That's my only experience with journalism.
But, friends I love have complimented my writing. I am both grateful and surprised. However, I always am surprised when someone tells me I am good at something. I generally don't think of myself as interesting or talented. I used to be interesting. My degree in Dance is interesting. My previous experience working for a Thomas Kinkade art gallery is interesting. As for as I know, that's all the interesting I've got! I was never talented. Could it be that some people still find me interesting?
Simple Definition of interesting
- : attracting your attention and making you want to learn more about something or to be involved in something : not dull or boring
- : holding the attention : arousing interest
Sunday, September 25, 2016
It started with Kung Fu Panda 3. Zach had seen it and wanted to watch it with me this summer. It was pure awesomeness!!!!! That was before I saw who voiced the characters. That day we ran out and got Kung Fu Panda 1 and 2. We watched them too. Also pure awesomeness!!! So Zach wanted to try the Hotel Transylvania movies. More awesomeness. Later, I found out who voiced the characters.
These two movie franchises have the following in common:
1. Strong stories
2. Important lessons
3. Well written stories
4. Relatable characters even in a small way
6. Dead Moms
Okay, the dead mom thing is very not awesome but it got me thinking. In a lot of kids TV shows the mom has died and the kids are being raised by a single dad. It also made me watch commercials more closely.
In the past, commercials about cleaning and parenting featured either a mom or both parents. These days, they are more likely to feature the dad. Some of them don't even mention a mom. It makes me think about why that is.
Dad's today are more involved. Great!!! But, then why is there a higher percentage of single dads in the media then in real life? Because it's safer to feature the dads. When it's sexist to feature women, it's safe to feature men.
Years ago a dish soap company featured a TV ad. "Women everywhere are throwing away their gloves". They received some backlash for the sexist wording. So they kept the same video and changed it to "People everywhere are throwing away their gloves".
I love how Hotel Transylvania talks about prejudice and acceptance. These are big things that are long term issues in our society. Kudos to Adam Sandler for these movies and teaching people about accepting those that look and act different from you!
The Shrek franchise was another whole-family friendly franchise. Disney movies tend to be whole-family friendly too. One example is Frozen. We watched Beauty and the Beast the day we picked up the newly framed painting Beauty and the Beast Falling In Love. (see previous post or wait until the "Home Gallery Tour" post).
Minions, Angry Birds, and others. There are a lot more movies in this category then there used to be. Production companies, writers, actors, and more have discovered that the key to a successful kids movie is one the adults can enjoy too. TV has also learned this lesson.
You enjoy it as a family, you can talk about it later as a family, and it becomes something you have in common. A shared positive experience. A dinner conversation topic once you get passed "what did you do today?" answer "nothing".
Please entertainment industry, keep them coming!!! Just start including Moms too!!! Yeah, that would be great!
Thursday, September 22, 2016
It was third grade. The 1989 - 1990 school year. I have always been small for my age. I also was a very quiet and shy person. Scared of authority even when I wasn't doing anything wrong. That sentence came from the substitute Art teacher. We were learning about Pointillism. Making pictures through dots.
Our regular Art teacher was on maternity leave. Mrs. J. was always one of those people I felt comfortable around. The substitute made me nervous. I don't know why. She was very nice and caring. That comment was out of concern. Was I okay? No, I wasn't.
It was a panic attack. One of many in my life. Every once in a while that sentence pops into my head. I still remember exactly where I was sitting in the classroom too. Maybe that's because Mrs. J. was always a comfort person for me.
When it comes to people I instantly get an instinct about them. Most people I have to be around for a while before I am comfortable with them. Others, I'm instantly comfortable around. When a panic attack hits, these are the people that help stop it quicker. Finally, is the group of people I will never be comfortable around.
I started shaking yesterday. I was doing the library at Zach's school. Convulsing is probably a more accurate word. Uncontrollable and only visible to anyone close to me. But, there was not a way to tell what made them start. I looked down at my hand and heard it again in my memory.
"Are you shaking while you are doing this?"
About a month ago I ended up in the ER with a panic attack. Zach jumped on my back in 5ft at the town pool. One problem, I'm 5' 3" and swallowed a lot of water. I had read about dry drowning and was very scared. Dry drowning is when you are out of the water but have water in your lungs and start drowning. It could happen hours after swimming. Tests showed that I was fine, just a panic attack. I had to stay until I calmed down.
"Are you shaking while you are doing this?"
Yes. While writing this I am shaking. I shake quite often. Most of the time, it doesn't get in the way of living. But, it does when it's like what happened yesterday. I'm not even sure yesterday was a panic attack. I don't know what would have caused it. But, I was resting while Zach and his classmates were being read to. Sitting on a chair at the desk. Visibly shaking for no apparent reason.
Panic attack symptoms are hard to identify. So many of them are symptoms of something else. I often don't know "if it's something real or a panic attack". When I said that in the ER the nurse corrected me. "Panic attacks are real too. They are just as important as other things."
"Are you shaking while you are doing this?"
Yes. I do a lot of things to try to calm down. If I'm home and available, I take Tylenol and sit up in bed until my body calms down. The last time I did this Zach brought me a stuffed animal to help make me feel better. What I needed was his other action. He was absolutely perfect while I calmed down. No parenting stress during that time.
I am feeling 9 of them right now. It's time to try that bed rest thing. Sometimes, I know what has triggered my panic attack. I take measures to avoid panic causing situations. But, other times, they hit from out of the blue without an identifiable cause.
"Are you shaking while you are doing this?"
That substitute had shoulder length strait blond hair, bangs, and blue eyes. She was about my parent's age. At that point, she had become our regular Art teacher. I was passed the point of being nervous over who would fill in for a favorite teacher. That wasn't the trigger that day.
Sometimes when I look down at my hands, they shrink in my mind. To the size of a nine year old's. A tiny 9 year old. Trying to stop the shaking so she can do what she is supposed to in Art class. Feeling like she let her teacher down over something she can't control. But, I didn't let the teacher down. She was just concerned about it.
The shaking never stops. It just eases a bit. I never really know what causes my panic attacks. I don't think they are ever over. They just have times when they are worse then normal.
"Are you shaking while you are doing this?"
I'd stop it if I could!!!
Sunday, September 18, 2016
I've been at it for a few months now. Only yesterday, with that comment, I realized how much French I actually know. It's still not enough to carry on a grammatically correct conversation. But, I know enough where a French person might be able to generally know what I am talking about.
By personal definition there are three levels of speaking a language:
1. know the words most people do
2. Can't converse without sounding like a caveperson, but can be understood
By "know the words most people do" I am talking the basics. Words that most people recognize. These are languages where you might know less then ten words, but you probably wouldn't even be able to identify that exact language if you heard it. You also wouldn't be able to even attempt a conversation in this language.
When I say "Can't converse without sounding like a caveperson, but can be understood" I mean basically that. If I am talking to someone where either French or Spanish is their primary language, there is a chance they can understand what I mean. Even if I'm not using grammatically correct language. I'm far from fluent, but I know more then the bare bones basics. You can attempt a conversation. It would be hard, but do-able.
I might also be using some words wrong. Example, "Je amour mon fils" should be "I love my son". Je = I, amour = love mon = my and fils = son. Yet, "J'aime mon fils" (pronounced: jay mon feese) is really "I love my son" I might do this when I know individual words but not the proper sentences. However, a French person would know what I meant if I said " Je amour mon fils". It's wrong, but they would know.
These are the languages you know letters, numbers, nouns, verbs, pronouns, adjectives, adverbs, colors, family names, ect...... and some basic phrases. They are also the languages you can identify when you see and/or hear it. You might not know all of the words, but you can correctly identify what you are hearing and/or reading as that language.
"J'aime mon fils" is "I love my son" in French. ("fille" pronounced "feel" is daughter)
"Amo a mi hijo" is "I love my son" in Spanish. ("hija" pronounced "E-ha" is daughter)
Do I really need to give an example of what I mean by "fluent"? Oh, right, I just did! I am currently only fluent in English. My goal is to become fluent in:
Mandarin and American Sign Language were on that list. They are too hard for "fluent" without taking a class but my goal is still "can't converse without sounding like a caveperson, but can be understood". German might eventually fall into this category too. Nope, I don't have any plans to leave the country.
I love my son, J'aime mon fils, Amo a mi hijo. I'm pretty sure "bambino" will be in that sentence when I learn Italian but I'm not there yet.
J'aime mon fils. Sa couleur préférée est le vert. I love my son. His favorite color is green.
Mon fils is proud of me. He sees me doing these lessons sometimes. If he's around when I am doing one, I catch him listening. He likes learning other languages too. As I learn, I try to teach him some words or phrases he might like. It's a positive thing to set an example for.
Since I named this post "I Love My Son", I'll list why:
1. He's smart
2. He's funny
3. He is a great helper
4. He goes to bed really really quickly.
5. When he's not antsy, he is wonderful to snuggle with
6. He's a lot like me
7. He's got excellent taste!
8. He hugs me a lot each day :)
9. He's a fantastic kid!
Tuesday, September 13, 2016
Why would they want Trump to win? Because he's an entertainer. POTUS is a major public figure. Daily in the news cycle. Hillary would be better at running the country. But, Trump would provide a lot more entertaining material for them. It's all about the ratings.
Usually, no matter the political party, the media calls the candidate on their lies. It doesn't matter which party the candidate is from, things like signs of sickness are treated equally by the media. I get it that FOX always ignores the Republican candidate's flaws. But, I've never seen them go to this extent before. And, they are balanced out by other sources of media.
I saw a sign the other day at someone's house. It said "Hillary's Lies Matter". I wish someone would spray paint under it "but Trump's lies don't matter". Either that person is ignorant to Trump's lies (meaning they don't read the real-time fact checking under the screen). Or, they just don't care that Trump makes so much up. Fabricated. More fictional then "My Little Pony".
Because that's what's happening. Hillary has been investigated and cleared for a few things. Trump has done a lot more. But, he hasn't been investigated and not cleared. He's either not investigated or investigated and cleared.
The PolitiFact scorecard Donald Trump
- True ( 4%)(10)
- Mostly True (11%)(27)
- Half True ( 15%)(37)
- Mostly False ( 18%)(44)
- False ( 35%)(87)
- Pants on Fire ( 18%)(45)
The PolitiFact scorecard Hillary Clinton
- True ( 22%)(55)
- Mostly True ( 28%)(70)
- Half True ( 22%)(54)
- Mostly False ( 15%)(37)
- False ( 11%)(27)
- Pants on Fire ( 2%)
So let's call the top 3 as "not lies" and the bottom 3 as "lies"
Hillary: 72% not lies 28% lies
Trump: 30% not lies 71% lies
So Hillary tells the truth 42% of the time more then Trump
But Trump LIES 43% MORE of the time then Hillary.
She tells the truth roughly as often as he lies!!!
But, to some, Hillary's lies matter more then Trump's. My guess is Trump's lies matter more to the small businesses that went out of business or filed for bankruptcy because he didn't pay them. It matters to everyone who in good faith loaned him money on his name alone then had to take less or nothing when he filed for bankruptcy. After the second Bankruptcy they lenders got what they deserve for lending to him anyway. Starry eyed idiots! His lies matter to all the employees he jilted on pay. But, some people are too brainwashed by the media manipulation to really think about what would happen if he did that to THEM as President. To other countries as President.
He's done things that anyone else would be arrested for. Even calling for his "Trumpies" to shoot Hillary is an outright felony. Yet he has not been put under arrest. Anyone else would have been. Why is he getting away with this? Yet some people might change their votes from Clinton to Trump because she got sick. She's not terminal. But, the media presents it like she is.
Hillary gets criticized no matter what she does. The media doesn't do that to Trump. Why is Trump orange? Hillary gets sick, as we all do, and is considered unfit to lead. Why has no one looked into why Trump is orange? That has to be a medical condition. But, no one cares.
Some would play the woman card. Her extra criticism is because she's a women and some voters just aren't ready for a woman yet. I don't think that's it. It's part of the problem. Some voters will vote for Trump because of that. They will use the reason "I just don't like Hillary" but it's an anti-woman in power thing.
But, the coverage is just so lopsided. I can't help but think the media is trying to sabotage the election. To manipulate voters to choosing the person they want to win. It's all about money. They sell more of their product with more entertaining material. Trump is more entertaining. But, he's the worst candidate ever. I wonder how many Republican voters are voting for him because they are Republican versus how many are voting for him because they truly think he'll be a good President.
The media has gotten so good at manipulation. They have so many tools to make it easy. I'm not asking that they switch and start to manipulate voters into going all Hillary. I'm asking for equal coverage. Stop downplaying Trumps flaws and upplaying Hillary's. Show them equally with equal measure of importance. Do the same thing with strengths. I don't need quotes from celebrities. I need statistical proof from bipartisan financed studies. The media HAS to be bipartisan.