Pretty brave for someone who had a nine year long eating disorder. When I was twelve I started to eat more junk food. My mom said I should ease up on it. Instead of buying junk I decided to spend my money on things to make me pretty like hair stuff and makeup stuff. That was the year I didn't really do any after school actives so I went back to active things and became more active. In the 7th grade (14) I went back to taking dance classes. I started dancing a whole lot and really loved it. By 9th grade I reached 80 pounds. As a junior in high school, at about 85-90 pounds the doctor made me drink a boost for breakfast in the nurses office each day and were careful to weigh me. I had an abnormal eating disorder meaning I ate and didn't throw up but I wasn't taking in enough calories to compensate for what I burned off. This went on. I remember between 9th and 10th grade I went to Stagedoor Manor theater/dance camp for dance (2 classes a day plus play practice) and skipped dinner one night. The director called me to the office angry and would have punished me if I didn't know what was being served for dinner (I knew my roommate had told me). This went on and got to the point in college where I regularly got dizzy at the end of long dance classes. My junior year in college (1st semester of cedar crest) I fainted a few times in the nurses office. Once, I fainted in the emergency room at the hospital. An oreo helped me feel better. That was when I suspected that I had hypoglycemia (low blood sugar) That march it was confirmed and it's a result of the eating disorder that will be with me always. But the fainting happened the November before (2001). The Dean of Students sent me home with 10 class days left. The fainting at the nurse were all on Fridays where I planned to drive 2 hours home. They made me call my mom for her to take me home. That third time was the kicker she said I couldn't come back until I had a note from a specialist saying I am under care. That's when I found Psychiatrist Dr. R. My goal was to be under 100 on my wedding day. I was at 98lbs. but after the wedding I reached the normal weight. Josh says I have never been more beautiful.
I always tell my doctors about the eating disorder and it was something carefully kept an eye on during pregnancy. My weight gain was always exactly right and in the end I only gained 20 pounds. I was 118 when I got pregnant. It's good to be healthy but no, I'm not pregnant.
Notes: I have since edited the part about what healthy looks like after an extensive diet. Here is the link to that post.