Sorry, this diet has my brain fried I couldn't think of a funnier title. Here's my reason for giving up on a relationship where I bust my butt and don't get much in return. At least not enough to consider this a relationship worth continuing. It's like the guy you live with for two years constantly asking "are you ever going to marry me?" and not getting a strait answer. This is my version of the "where are we going?" question: "I don't mind the sacrifices but only if in return you will give me the body I really want. Will you ever do that?" Apparently, the answer is "no".
Maybe it was because I did something stupid recently. When watching Home Improvement Josh IMDBed Debbe Dunning (Heidi the tool girl) and found that even in her mid 40's with two or three kids she has like a 28" waist. I tell myself "well she has a personal trainer so that makes it a lot easier". But I'm lying to myself. If you need a refresher here's my exercise routine, exercise is not my problem. I am my own personal trainer. I do this on average 3 times a week and it counts as 8 miles of exercises. That doesn't include the extra lighter exercise days.
http://homewithmommy-fran.blogspot.com/2012/02/ultimate-exercise-routine.html
So other then busting my butt I have a strict diet. I built in treats but I need extra miles for those including an extra mile each for my coffee and glass of wine. On a "good girl" day I need 3 miles. On Fridays and Sundays I need either 5 or 6 miles usually. Here it is:
Breakfast
Mon - Sat: 1 egg cheese omelet with salsa and coffee requires 1 mile for the coffee
Sunday: 2 medium sized (2 inches across) pancakes loaded with blueberries, 1 link sausage, and coffee requires 2 miles
Lunch
Mon - Thurs: Salad of turkey and cheese cold cuts (2 slices turkey 1 cheese) and dressing (Cesar, Honey mustard, or thousand island) and water (not a lot) requires 0 miles
Fri: 3 medium slices sausage pizza not crust and water requires 2 miles because of no crust
Sat: Left over tacos no shells and water requires 0 miles
Sun: Either a homemade burger or a grilled chicken wrap miles required 1 if I drink water 2 if I have a soda
Dinner
Sun - Thurs: Varies each day but is a protein, veggie, and a carb with water. required miles 1
Fri: varies but that's the take out day and I have a soda usually required miles 2
Snacks (various times during the day)
lasts 1 - 1.5 hours: 5 - 8 nuts 7 strawberries and/or banana in yogurt (1 cup) or banana
lasts 2 hours: 19 grapes with 5 slices cheese, 7 strawberries in cottage cheese, celery in cottage cheese
Required miles: 0
Bedtime Snack (with wine)
1 square of cocktail size pumpernickel and 6 thin slices of Swiss cheese requires 1 mile due to the wine
Morning Snack (I wake up in between 5 and 7 hungry)
1 cracker and 1/3 a small glass of juice (but not that tiny glasses just like the 8oz) requires 0 miles
I get tired of the lack of options. I feel like I spend all bleeping day in the kitchen cooking or cleaning. A pop tart is way easier then the omelet. If by doing this it would guarantee a 25 - 28" waist (28 being when I have my period) then I would feel that it's worth it. But after all this the most I am told to hope for is 30". Poundage is less important since I'm 121 now but with the waist, nope if I'm still going to look fat all that extra work cooking, dishes cleaning and exercising doesn't seem worth it. I also am more tired.
My mom wonders if I have a thyroid issue. It runs in my dad's family and I had a hypoactive thyroid after my 3rd miscarriage. Basically, I reached a point where my already weak feet can't keep this heavy exercise up and the eating part is bringing me down. I need a pill of some sort to help and thyroid sounds about right. I tried to be tested before but can't fast so the non-fast test hasn't shown a problem. I'm going to call my doctor Monday and have him if not test thyroid, at least try a medication to see if it makes a difference. That seems to be what would stop this constant shaking!!! On average I need about 28 - 30 miles a week and get around 32.
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